I'm pretty sure I was intentionally crushed?

I think you need to upgrade the quality of man you hang with. Anyone, male or female, who digs at you on the sly, and boasts about crushing other people's worlds is just despicable. All of these things were warning signs that you evidently chose to ignore. Unfortunately, these kind of person do get under the skin, and one thinks that it is personal in nature, instead of seeing it as it really is - a character flaw on the part of the perpetrator. One that you would have better avoided, instead of allowing yourself to be sucked in (for what reason? to prove him wrong or in the belief that this behaviour wouldn't affect you?) I'm sorry he hurt you, but you can take this experience as a lesson for the future and learn to give people like him a wide berth. They aren't pleasant, they are rarely redeemable, and they are toxic to those who fall into the trap of thinking that there is something positive to ociating with them. I wish you all the best for recovering from this relationship. You will, I promise. Good luck.